Spody

Sun 17 Sep 2023

Moving sucks. I kept saying to people that I would move everything myself because everytime that I had to move, people just didnt show up or didnt do anything (left early). It was exactly the same this time around aswell. My dad, mom and sister came to help. Dad walked up 2-3 times to the apartment, sister did about 8. Mother did 30. And I did 84, according to my phone. This is alot and makes you tired. Atleast for me when I’m not exactly in the best shape. Sister had to leave early, even she said that she didnt come by to help, but did anyway, which was nice. Mom arrived 2h late and was there for abotu 2 hours before she left again. Dad was there the entire day, but just didnt do anything. Not even unloading the car. Just standing still.

So I’m extremely tired. I have no internet since they need a technician out to replace the router. It’s not something that I could replace my self apparently. I ordered the internet in the start of august, but yeah. Almost 2 months of waiting time.

The only thing I have set up is my bed, and TV. Computer and other stuff is still packed down. I have nowhere to place it.

On another note then I had to empty out the garage I had because keys are being delivered tomorrow. Just my dad had alot of stuff there. So I moved my stuff and cleaned up my part. But then he got “busy” and didn’t have the “time” or “energy” to do anything, so I had to move his stuff aswell. When he finally got to the garage then he said he didnt want to get his car dirty, so I had to put everything in my car so he can move it himself later. This just annoys me so much. Like what is the point of having a SUV (Aiways U5) and not use the space for anything? Meanwhile me in my small Peugeot 206 hatchpack I have everything.

Anyway that’s all for me right now I’ll update when I have more.

Thur 14 Sep 2023

Tomorrow, friday I have the day off work so I can move all my stuff.

Wish it was longer tho.

And I wish that I had internet on day one, But even tho I ordered internet over a month ago to the address, they need a technician out to fix it. It’s just putting up a new router. Which they said they would send to me over a week ago. I still haven’t received anything yet.

So I have an idea that I kinda started on. But I need to fix some of the other stuff I have before I do that. Plus I was thinking about doing more streaming. Which would make me have even less time to do stuff. I haven’t fixed any of the other projects that I’m working on, yet I want to start up more and then complain about not getting it done in time.

I have been thinking about the project I will talk about when I move, if I should make it into a video for one of the many channels I have up that I dont make anything for.

With that being said I think I have a few hours of videos to render that needs to go up on one of the channels.

Sadly I can’t put up solar power, and power in general is quite expensive here compared to other places I’ve lived. This is due to everything being green power, and that we pay tax on power aswell. The tax is due to our government wanting electric vehicles, and when everyone got electric vehicles then they would up the price so they make more money. Its the standard here.

I think that I should make this site into a blog, but I’ll make a secret thing for putting stuff up online. Via database.

There was also the reader of emails that I think I should put up somewhere. I’m getting tired of writing everything with markup. If I press enter it should automaticlly make me a new line instead of writing the < p > < /p > tags.

This change would only make it easier for me to write stuff, and then make the site maybe faster so it doesn’t have to load in all the text that I have written before, from day one.

Plus it would be easier to link a specific post to someone.

It might require some work, but I think it would be better for me, plus more time stamps

I think with this I could also add pictures to the posts if I wanted to. These have to be fixed in a size that is easy to load, and fast. This means they’re perhaps not the best of quality, but with what I have in mind then I think adding a link to the original picture below would make it so people could download it if they’re interested.

With this project then I’m also trying to get rid of something the world uses everyday, but I know I can’t get rid of it, this is due to the way the government works and how they want to track people.

Wed 13 Sep 2023

So far of today it’s just been work. I got a reply for some insurance stuff I need for new place. I finally got a useful reply from a person that I’m buying something used from. The stuff from the thriftstore I purchased yesterday has been picked up. The current project that I’m working on, and I will show off when I’m done moving, is almost done. And it should be because I’m moving on friday.

That means I might not do anything for a while, it might be as quiet as august was.

I still think I should make this website into something different.

Or well not different, but something that makes it easier for me to write new stuff. This comes with a security risk, but I think I have an idea of how to make it better, and not really think about it.

If I want to talk about a different thing, then I’ve been dizzy all day, while I have been drinking water, I’m not feeling too well.

I’ve been thinking about alot of projects that I should get done, or that I should finish.

All the ideas, but no motivation to finish them.

After I move then I will be working on some I know that.

I want to clear up my mind a bit so I don’t have to think about those.

Tues 12 Sep 2023

Projects, projects and projects. That’s alot of what I do in my free time.

I will update the project page very soon with more stuff that I’m working on. Sadly none of these are programming related. I will also start publishing guides to what I’ve done with some of the projects.

There’s the Raspberry Pi project that uses multiple Raspberry Pi’s and an RF modulator to make your own local TV channels. Then I have a project that’s kinda finished, but due to moving in a few days I haven’t done anything regarding it. Some say it’s stupid, some say it’s pretty cool. I just want to get away from all the devices that track me.

Speaking of which I’ve had on my mind to make this site more easy for me to write stuff for. And while I do want to keep it lightweight and make stuff myself. I don’t feel like I have the motivation to keep making stuff from scratch, while also thinking about security.

I was thinking about making the site into a WordPress blog, that way it would be easier for me to update stuff, but I was also thinking about making a lock or password protected page from where I could drop everything I write into a database so it will load these posts from that.

That can be both a security issue, and a blessing for me. I dont want to make it harder, but right now I manually write the code for this blog. Like I actually write my blog in Notepad, to then add the HTML markup so it looks better on computers.

I have a project that I kinda want to start working on, but it will take some time to make, I think.

A better search engine for mails. Like being able to search for files, and what’s in the files. I’m not sure if other providers have that, But I kinda just want to make it for searching my own mails. I might publish it, if I make it and I find it good enough for others to use.

Many of my projects stays in my hands, or if I send it to someone they might use it once and then it’s forgotten.

One of them being Spody.org I feel like I added a bunch of stuff, and it was in use for a few days and then it just stopped getting any traffic.

Last time someone added something to the site was a few months ago.

Maybe it’s also because the people that I have asked to use it dont see a need for it.

The plan with it was to make it so I could remember which games I had played, which I own, and which I’m currently playing.

I need to update the site soon with more features, since it’s also only in a alpha, or beta. Some features are there on the frontend, but not on the backend. Plus most of the pages could use more info. Google denied many things for the site because there was nothing new on there, and many pages had the same information.

If I need to get more visitors to the platform I might need to give it some kind of overhaul, and also fix a bunch of the issues that there are on the site. Any perhaps also “finish” the site.

With finishing I mean making it functional. Right now on this day then there’s no way to mark a game as complete if you have already marked it as playing. Then it will be in 2 lists.

Perhaps on this site then I should make it so the blog posts have a different file depending on the day, or just make it all downloadable from a database or something, but that might require more data for the end user, so I’m not sure how well I like that idea.

That was a longer update or a longer rant or whatever you want to call it from my end. I might update this later, or tomorrow.

Sat 9 Sep 2023

I’m writing this early in the morning on saturday. I’ve just taken my medication that I’m being told will help me mentally. But the truth is that they dont really change anything. I only get side effects from it. They’re supposed to help my brain “relax” more. But they’re medication against schizophrenia.

It was my birthday yesterday, and 5 people contacted me in total on the day. Is this what it means to be forgotten? Because it really feels like it.

Tues 5 Sep 2023

It’s been some time since I updated properly on this page.

Alot of stuff have gone down that I haven’t been able to talk about before now.

First of all then there has been some friendships that have been on the loose and alot of drama. People blaming each other, and to be honest I’m too old to deal with it, so they could either stop it or get out of my life.

Second has been my diagnosis and stuff that I’m going through mentally. It’s hard to explain, but I’m not really well in my head. There has been too many suicide attempts, and with my life in general over the past few years it’s easy to understand why. I won’t get into the details right now. But there has been alot going on. Now I’m on medication against Schizophrenia. And the past few days where I’ve gotten them (started friday 1st september), boy I can tell you they’re something.

Like I get alot of the sideeffects that they list. And they even told me when I went to pick up the medication at the pharmacy.

These are some of the things that I’ve experienced so far:

• Headache
• Dizzy
• Faster heartbeat
• Vomit feeling when moving
• Weak (everything feels heavy, even arms and legs)

If we want to top everything there then I’ve been told to take this medication until my doctor says no. So its going to be a great month until the next time I see him.