Sun 25 January 2026

I haven’t updated this page in a while, but I’m just doing stuff to survive. Financially I’m not doing too well, but I’m making it work. I am eating less but thats about it. I got some ideas for making a game, or multiple games in a series, but with how great I am with making models I dont really feel it’s up to the standards I want, so I would like to get someone to make the models for me. But I know that would cost money, money which I dont have. So I’m trying to save up money to get some models made. I’ve been playing a little bit of Warcraft 3 custom games, which have made me get the idea for this game, or game series. I think it would be a good idea to make a main game, and then side games for the characters. I dont know if that would mean it’s a money grab, but that’s the idea I have so far with getting back story into the game. Since I dont feel like the game type would be good to have a backstory made for the characters. Like it’s a multiplayer game, and dont really have a story. So it’s just ideas so far, I have started making the game and the characters that I want to have in the game, like the story and a little of their story, but that’s about it. I’ve been working on this for about 4 days so far. Not too long to get some stuff done, but I also have been busy with alot of other stuff, like I’m moving soon. And then there has been alot with my mental health going on, so I’ve not been doing too well.

I’ve been selling some of my stuff lately to get money on the table, stuff that I have too many off. Even when it’s stuff I want to keep, but that’s just what I have to do. Had to sell my desktop computer, so I’m just working on many of my other computers. I counted to 7 desktop computers I had laying around fully functional, with harddrives and such installed. But yeah. Trying to sell out of them. Some of them I did get for free some years ago. I have been working a little with retro stuff, like Windows XP and older. 2 of the computers I had gotten some years ago was still running the original install of Windows XP on the harddrives. One was installed up in 2006 and the other in 2008. They’re fairly decent computers for the time, and didnt really have any slow downs, they were used mostly for emails and pdf files. I did try to get one working up with the stuff that I like, but due to them not really being able to run Discord, which I use to contact most people then I didnt run with them. I could maybe install a newer version of Windows on them, but I didnt. Right now they’re just unplugged and somewhere else in my room. I honestly dont know if I should sell them or not, they might sell quickly if the price is low enough, and some people do like retro computers for specific games or software. I do like the older stuff and like to run with it, but yeah it’s just hard to work with when everyone you talk with are on one program that requires alot of newer software. Like I could get Supermium working on Windows XP which would allow me to run Discord on the browser, but it didnt feel right to use that. I’ve also been watching a guy using Dial Up internet lately, over the past month or so. He uses an old computer from around 98, with Windows 98 installed on it. I think it’s interesting to look at how stuff worked back then. Even when the first computer that I was put in front of was a Windows 95 computer. We didnt get a Windows 98 computer before 2000, and then in 2001 we got XP installed. And in 2004 I got my first computer. Before that it was the family computer. It was that computer that I did my first videos online, but they sadly have been lost to time. There is a video from 2007 on Youtube made on that computer.

Regarding the game that I’ve been working on, I have some ideas. Like I did start making a game back in august, but stopped working on it, since I couldnt get the story written down how I want it to be. And I think that project would be too much for a first game developed. Like I do have some ideas for the game I want to make, but as I am with my website I’m never satisfied with how it’s working and looking, I always think it can be done better. Where with the new game that I’m working on, I want to get other people making stuff for it when I can get the money for it.

With my mental health, then I’m currently unemployed since I got fired back in October. And I haven’t been looking for a job because I know that with the mental health I have I might not be able to work. I’m currently in the process with the government to see what I’m able to do and work with, and it could take some time. So for the time being I’m just working on this website and the game that I want to make. I know that I dont update this website that often, and I do want to update it more, but there is just nothing really happening to my life. Other than working on the mental health stuff. Like right now I can barely even go outside my place. If I have to talk on the phone or do anything social then I feel sick. I want to be self employed, but I do also know that I can’t do much with no money. If I am selfemployed I wont get any funding for anything, which right now I get some unemployment benefits. If I were to be make this game that I’m working on then I would start up a business or something so I would be taxed less. Like if you have a business making the game or releasing the game then you would only pay 22% tax on the profits, instead of the 40-42% of personal income you pay here.

Anyway that’s the update I have for now. I’ll try to update with more soon. I know I will be rebuilding my computer soon, since it’s just laying open on a table beside my desk. I have a case for it and that, I just have been lazy and not working on putting it in.