Tues 20 Jun 2023

Today is the day that my dad has to go under the knife. So that means I have to take care of my brother. Atleast today and tomorrow. He was told that he could drive home himself so it’s not that bad.

Otherwise I’ve done almost nothing.

I’ve written half a script for a video idea I have, then maybe next weekend I’ll record it and maybe start editing it.

I don’t know who I can trust.

They’re around me, they’re everywhere.

My thoughts aren’t my own.

They want me to do bad things.

Everyone is against me.

I don’t know who’s trustworthy.

Afraid to do anything.

If I rebel they will get me.

I see them.

They see me.

They’re always just standing and looking directly at me.

I don’t know what to do.

I don’t know what I can do.

All they tell me is the best way of ending my life.

If it finally isn’t that they’re talking about then it’s how to end someone else’s life.

I’m shaking and crying at work.

I can’t do this anymore.

It’s so loud, they’re everywhere.

I can’t concentrate.

What they say might be correct, it’s easier if I wasn’t around.