I don't know if these can be called rants, but whatever I'm writing about my life and how I feel.
I'll put time stamps on so the latest one is the top one.
sat 18 october 2025
It seems it has come to my attention that HP, is removing old articles, guides and drivers for their older products when they are no longer within warranty. One of the things I've wanted to do for a while was make a archive site with a bunch of old stuff, but that seems more like something I should start working on after reading this.
thurs 16 october 2025
Alot of stuff has happened over the past few weeks. Well not much to be honest. But some stuff has happened. The biggest thing has been that the company I worked for went bankrupt, and didnt pay my salary. So I've been in the talks with my union that helps with bankruptcy and stuff like that about getting my money back. They made a claim for atleast 3 months of salary due to how I'm hired. But there's a chance I might only get 2 months. Anyway I'm taking all I can get. I'm on sickleave aswell so they can't do anything to me as of right now.
Then later in the month, like a few days ago from today, I was at the jobcenter (the place every unemployed person goes to) to talk about how I've been and such. I then asked about possibly getting my retirement, to which they said that since I'm in some meetings with the Psych Ward I can't apply for retirement just yet. I have to finish the meetings first.
Also in the month I sold pretty much all my games because I needed money and didnt really use it. I have kinda wanted to drop down with alot of the stuff I have, since I have too much.
thur 4 sep 2025
I finally found the will to make this site back online again. On my main domain. This will just be a place to vent and talk about whatever I have going on.
I did a piece on Linux on another page
mon 18 mar 2024
Most of my time is spent online now. I seem to spend all my day on Youtube or Reddit.
I got a new keyboard the other day, found it at a recycling center.
Some days I have ideas that I want to make, but no motivation to actually do anything, and other days I have the motivation to do stuff, but dont have any ideas.
wed 10 jan 2024
It's a new year and again I barely have anything to say on this site. It's kind of getting old now. That I try to keep this site up to date with what I'm doing, yet I'm not updating.
There's stuff I can do if I can get it working. Like the RF modulators I have, but I can't get it working correctly like how I want to. Like they dont output to the TV with what I'm sending through, which might just be a bad cable or something like that. Before I make a post about it I need to get a new Raspberry Pi so host some of the videos that I want to show. So that means I need to get some money first. And that's now getting number one priority. But then I shouldn't spend money on something I barely use. And right now I have my TV powered maybe 3-4 times a month. Tho with alot of the retro stuff that I have right now like my phones working, and not gotten the cables fixed up for those yet. And then I have cables running everywhere with all the consoles I currently have setup for my retro TV.
fri 29 dec 2023
To start with, happy holidays to those to celebrate. I did, but I've been sick for most. First a cold, and then later a flu. Which have been very fun.
In december I started a new Youtube channel to explain more about Denmark. One video up so far, but I want to make some more, just have been sick so not able to talk much.
I've been thinking about turning these posts into videos where I kinda just say what's on my mind and rant abit since most of the stuff I rant about is actually about stuff that happens in my life or stuff about Denmark.
On a completely different note then I have gotten some new ideas for a new game that I want to start making, but I always have issues getting models and animations as I either have to start learning how to make those, or get them made by someone else. Which I can get done, I know someone that is an animator and makes models, it's just a matter of getting them to do it, or I find someone online and pay them to do it. Which could also be done if I didnt spend my money on other stuff.
The game idea I have is a single player stealth game in the form of the Sly Cooper series. That's atleast what I've been thinking about. It most likely wont get to anywhere with my motivation not being that great for making new things, that's also why I never get any good stuff done for videos or anything I make, like this website. I could make it pretty and fancy so it looked nice, and made all the rants blogposts with a different CMS, but I chose to make it like this because it loads faster, for the 0 people who read my posts. I haven't checked the amount of people that visits the site, but since I haven't published it anywhere and it's only 1 person I've shared it with then it's just not getting any views. Which I'm fine with. I dont mind the page not getting that many views, if any. It's afterall just a place where I rant about what happens in my life.
wed 29 nov 2023
Seems like there wont be many updates on this page this month with how much different I'm doing.
Anyway, I bought an Airfryer today and I'm looking up many recipies that I can try out. Mostly the cake part seems to be interesting to me. Even when its just a smaller oven. But the reason why I bought it is simply because it uses less power than my oven. So the less power I use the more money I have. Even when it's not that much, but if this one last me a year, which it should due to warranty is 2 years. Then I've saved more than I spent on it in power. That is if the power bill keeps looking the way it is right now. And from what I can see and what the government tells then it's going to be the same or increase in price.
mon 20 nov 2023
So due to me being on sickleave at the moment, and spending my time doing absolutely nothing productive. Then I'm forced to go to the government because they need to pay me when I've been on sickleave for a while. They told me that I need to book a time on their website to go and talk with them, but the issue is that their site isnt working, I've tried on multiple different days to book a new time, before the date is over, but it keeps giving me an error saying that I need to contact the government regarding this because my account cant do it. So I did. I told them the error and the thing they give me back is that I should try again another day. What?! It sometimes feels like when stuff is broken and you're on the last day before they just say, we dont care if you get money or something we dont get paid enough to deal with your issues. And then I just have to wait now. Wait until the due date is passed, which it is on wednesday, and then I can call them and say their website isnt working and I'm not able to book a new time with them due to the error I had the other day, which I still have. Which I have a feeling they will just say that they cant do anything. Thats the information that I'm getting from them. Pretty much with everyone that I know who have been in the same situation as me. The government workers just dont care as long as they get paid their salary. Even if they're employed to help others get money.
Anyway nothing much has happened, like at all. I'm just sitting watching movies, or sorting stuff. Because even when I've been moved in for a few months now, then I still dont have everything here, and alot of the stuff is just in boxes where nobody know whats in them.
sun 19 nov 2023
I don't seem to do alot of stuff here on this page anymore. And it's annoying. I either forget it or just dont have anything new to update the page with.
Anyway I've built a new shelf for all my games and physical media. Picture will be shown on a different url sometime soon when I get more cleaned up on stuff.
thur 2 nov 2023
Alright, so I dont update this much, simply because there isn't much going on in my life. I'm just sitting at home watching videos, and playing games. Since I'm not really allowed to work, and then I have doctors appointments all the time.
I'm purchasing alot of retro stuff that I plan on reselling at some point, or gathering inventory in case I one day have the funds to open a store. I dont feel like selling stuff online and shipping. I prefer local pickups. Which then leads to even less people buying my stuff. I have about 2700 games currently in my collection, where about 200 of them are for sale. And I seem to keep more than I want to sell which is a bad idea when you try to make your hobby into something you want to earn money on.
sat 28 oct 2023
It's been 16 days since I last updated anything on here. Nothing really has happened in my life that I can talk about. Like I'm just going to doctors, and somehow being busy all day, while I dont really have a schedule to do anything. So it's more like just being in bed (got sick with the flu) or sitting in my armchair watching TV. Dreaming about alot of stuff that most likely wont happen.
The dream that I currently have, as with many people you have alot of dreams you would like to do but difficult to do without having the funding to do so. I would like to start a retro game store, but I'm not much for doing online stuff, so it would be physical, and stores around here costs alot of money. And I would need stock, since I dont have too much myself. I only have about 2.5k games, which is my personal stuff, so I would need to go buy alot of stuff. This is the difficult part of it, since I would need to get the funding up and hope that it would make enough money for me to actually live off it. Which is also difficult to do.
But other than dreaming I've just been inside sick.
I dont have any other projects currently going on, since there's nothing really new.
The only thing I could think about doing is maybe start up with the Youtube stuff I've been doing again. The gameplay stuff for each game that I own, but there is alot, and also figuring out if I want to stream them or just record them locally is difficult, since I dont want to just sit there and not talk, with how talkative I am.
I dont know, that's what been going on in my life so far, in the past 2ish weeks.
Other than the dreaming stuff then I had to go get a new car, which I got the other day, the old one didnt pass inspection which I already knew it wouldn't do.
thur 12 oct 2023
I haven't been doing much in the past few days. It's just being at home doing random stuff on the computer. Being on sickleave does mean I dont go out as much as I used to. Both because I dont want to meet up with people and because I dont really feel like there's anything outside I need to do. The only thing is shopping, which is only for some food.
I dont leave my place often it seems like. I've been out 2 times this week so far. And we're on thursday. And those times have been because something happened with my brother, and because I had to go shopping.
Other than doing nothing then I've been recording stuff for a Youtube. And thinking about ideas for the other Youtube channel I have.
Youtube sent me an email on one of the accounts I have yesterday lowering the limit for partner, which is nice I guess, but people would then have more ads on their videos because of it. Since it's easier to get it now.
The internet should be a free thing, and I understand people wanting to put ads on stuff. I get annoyed when I see it myself, but I do also make money from it. So it's kinda required for me to enjoy the ads, right?
With running ads on my livestream and on my Youtube then its a way for me to make money.
I've been saying for the past 2 weeks now that I should start streaming more, but then I never end up doing it because of being lazy, or being on the phone with something. Yesterday I was supposed to it, but then my internet was down for the most of the day. And only finally came back up and running very late where I was about to go to bed.
Today I've been lazy and been in bed for a long time.
I have received a letter from the government saying that I missed a payment in 2021. Of 400kr (DKK) and due to me not paying it then it has been increased to 680kr (DKK). Now this annoys me, because I paid the bill they sent me in 2021, I have bank statements saying that exact amount and they never sent me any bill afterwards, if I had missed it. Which they need to do before they can add interests. Even if it's the government, then they're not allowed to do so. Everything from the government is sent by digital mail, on their own system, so I would know if I had gotten any extra bill, which I haven't gotten from them. So I need to contact them regarding this. Which just sucks that I have to spend time on it. Since they're not correct. And then, it's a bill I paid on 1st of august 2021. So it's over 2 years ago. It's stupid. That they sent the extra bill now.
thur 5 oct 2023
There isnt much to do. I'm just sitting watching an old series on the TV. It's from 78, and it's pretty much what went on in the daily life in 1929-1945. Currently the crisis that they're showing is that people are selling all their stuff and trying to get the money they are available to due to the crisis in 1930. Nobody have money, and nobody are able to buy anything. So everyone is trying to go back to their old ways of making their own clothes with scraps they are able to get.
It's a small city where everyone knows everyone. So news spread fast, and if you have money then you are someone, if you dont have any then you're a nobody. If you are a fine person, then you shop in the fine stores, if not then you go to the common stores. This is how it was back then. If you get someone pregnant, then you are forced to marry them, they are not allowed to have a child if they're not married. It's a story about how it was back in the 30's Denmark. And everyone here knows it. People look weird at you if you havent seen it before.
The show is weird in the sense that everyone is Mr and Ms, and if you have to say something fast to someone then you just say their last name and nothing else. After writing my project and also knowing how it was in that time, then when people had to call someone they lifed the phone, dialed the handle (rotary handle you have to turn) not as a rotary phone, and then the operator would answer the phone. They would say a number between 1 and 999. Because there was not that many phonenumbers available.
I'm sick. And that really sucks. I want to do something, and be fresh, not groggy, and barely able to stand up.
I've done some cable management on my retro area, or actually it can just be called my TV.
A B&O MX8000. It's a CRT. With a wonderful whine when you power it up. I love it. It's connected to a pair of BeoLab 6000 speakers, where I really want to get some BeoLab 8000 speakers. They sound much better, but I'm living with what I have at the moment. The reason why I got the BeoLab 6000 was because the internal speaker in the TV was starting to scratch abit in certain shows, and then I was able to get these speakers very cheap. Below the TV, on the stand, there's a Beocord V8000 VCR player. Which I'm having some issues with at the moment. It's not really giving me display on some tapes. It's like when it gets hot then it doesn't want to play anything, and when it's cold then it doesn't want to show the tapes correctly, where it's all just blurry. So I can pretty much just watch one tape and then I have to wait for it to cool down a bit before I can watch another. And this gets annoying pretty quickly.
I got an old armchair from, I'm guessing, the 70s. It's brown leather, and hard wood. Smells of smoke. And it's wonderful to sit in. It's stable. No creaks or anything on it. It's matched together with a coffee table that I got from my dad, which he got from his dad. And he got it used for his and my grandmas wedding in 1965. So it's a few years old now. And it's still good, and the reason why I'm saying it's still good, is because it's made of good quality wood, and not the cheap stuff that Ikea and other stores use now. I'm slowly changing everything I have out with older used stuff because they feel much more sturdy and not cheap. And it's better to use the older stuff if it still works instead of going out to buy new just because you feel like it.
There's one thing I still need to get done, and that's getting a secondary monitor plugged into my desktop, but due to the desk I have I'm not exactly sure where to put it, and then I need to get a table or something for my newer consoles, so I can have them connected to my desktop for recordings.
wed 4 oct 2023
I just finished writing the experiment/project that I've been working on, it can be read here. (It will open up in a new tab.)
Other than that the only thing I've been doing today has been mental health stuff with a doctor. Hopefully they have an answer to me soon.
I just finished editing images for the project that I was working on, and they're now up. Might only be 2 images, but it's better than only text, right?
mon 2 oct 2023
Not much happened yesterday. I spent the entire day on my computer pretty much.
Today is a busy day with a lot of stuff. Like I have to help a friend with dentist stuff, since he isn't able to drive himself after getting removed a tooth.
Then I have to talk with someone about work, like a new job that he has asked me about.
After that then I have some insurance stuff due to a new bank account at a different bank. They also offer some insurance stuff. But it looks like I was double booked so I get 2 calls by different people at the same time. And the emails was sent at the same time.
I'll see if I can get the project page updated with the one I've been talking about for a few days.
I do think I have to make a video showing off the project aswell. Since it doesn't show all of it in pictures and text. I have an idea on how to make it load fast aswell, without doing too much work on it. By using links to the pictures, and if I can get the pictures down to under 20kb each then I'll show them on the page. But if I cant do that then I'll have to make a link in the text that opens a new page to show the image. But even those have to be fast loading. Slightly bigger, maybe like 300kb each, where if I have to embed the picture it should be a maximum of 30kb. I dont want the pages to be too big, and everyone should be able to load a 30kb page very very fast.
Does anyone feel like you are being watched, and everything you do gets collected into a system where the higher ups know exactly what you're doing.
I'm being watched, I know it. But I dont know who is. There was stories about some insurance companies that keep a track over people and tapping into their phone to make sure theres no fraud going on, but I know that's not it.
There's something going on. I can't put a word to it, but I know it is going on. I'm not sure how many people read this page, and I dont know who is. I'm not tracking on it.
It's like there's something in my head that tells me the microphones are being on 24/7. And I know that they are. I've worked with Facebook marketing, so I know it's on if you have Facebook on your smartphone. That's one of the reasons why I'm trying to get away from the smartphone, but it's difficult due to the government using an app as a requirement for banking, and identification. So you're required to have one. Which really sucks. If you're 90 you're still required to have the app on your phone. There's a few exceptions, one being that you're too sick to use one. But there's nothing regarding the "healthy" people like myself, and the common person in this country.
This might be a rant, but I do really feel tracked and watched. I know I do use a computer quite often, and I do stuff online and have a digital footprint, with this page, and with other stuff I do online. Like the YouTube channels I have.
sat 30 sep 2023
Okay, so I went to bed very very late yesterday. So that made me wake up too early. I woke up at 8am, while going to bed at 4am. I was in bed for a few hours before actually getting up. Went to take a shower, get ready to go out and shop. Went shopping, and then I got home and slept off. Made the food when I woke up and then I ate, and then talked on the phone for a few hours.
I completely forgot to write the thing for the project I have been working on. So I'll see if I can get that done today, or tomorrow. I want to add pictures, but I also need to clean abit before I take them. Plus edit them so they're fast loading and such. A bunch of stuff to make it all very fast.
fri 29 sep 2023
So the day I thought would come actually arrived. I got fired. But it's due to an agreement that I have with the boss. I was put on the team for helping out, and if I'm on longer sickleave then I can't help out, and I would get fired. Simple as that. And now that my doctor has requested me to be off work for 4 weeks or more then I have to go and follow his orders, if I want to be somewhat healthy again. So that's what I have to do.
On a positive note then my new bank got opened so now I have a proper netbank, as in viewable from a browser, and not with app only. Even tho I need an app to visit the online banking site. This is the 2FA that the government has rolled out, the thing I really dont like, since it's being forced onto people and not a thing you can choose to have. It's alright, but being forced to have something is never nice.
Oh yeah that's right, I should make the project I've been talking about to write on whenever I got internet at the new place. I'll write it either tomorrow or sunday. I need to take pictures, which I guess would be the first pictures on this website. I'm not actually sure how I want to show the images, if I should show them in styling on a page, or if I should make it a link that people can then click on to see. The reason being that then it's not forced if people dont want to download images and want to view the site on a slower connection. While that is also said then maybe I should spend some of the extra time I now have making the sites and fixing the stuff that I have talked about for a while now. One of them being the project management site that I've been looking at making so I can keep track on where I am standing with the different projects, like the one that I've finished or that I want to write about this weekend.
Technically it's saturday right now as I'm writing this, but it's all what happened on the friday. There's nothing better to do at 2am, right?
I don't know how many people are looking at my page, and I don't realy care. It's all for me to have a diary, or something so I can remember what I've actually done. And a place for me to rant about stuff I feel like writing about.
It's what I wrote about in the why section.
Now it's no secret that the idea for me to make this site came from Eric S. Raymonds site.
Having a fast loading website that barely have anything on it, and is viewable from almost browser is nice, and makes it fast for people to load. Even on slow computers, and on the slower connections. I might have gone overboard with what I have on this site, and what I've made on it. But it's what I feel was the easiest to make. And I made it the way that I felt like making it.
Maybe I shouldn't have gotten an SSL certificate, but oh well, it got one now. I can always just not renew it when that time comes around.
thur 28 sep 2023
So it's a doctor time today. Regarding a bunch of stuff that I've had to take over a week off from work to do.
I've finally gotten the heating working. There was an issue with the boiler in the basement, that the plumber had to come and fix, it wasn't because I had to air out the radiators.
The carpet it out, or I guess it's more like a rug or something. And it's keeping the noise down quite a bit actually. Like The carpet/rug is on the entire floor, except for a few things in the corners. And there's almost no echo anymore. I got a few paintings that I can put up on the walls, except I need to buy some nails for it.
Switching topics then I've made small changes to Spody.org which have been updated on the frontpage.
I need to get myself a project manager. So I can keep track on what sites I have, the ideas, and how long time I spend on said programming. So I can in the end see how much time I spend on a certain thing. But I dont know if I should make it a subdomain for a site or if I should get a new domain and make it so peolpe can make accounts and keep track on their own stuff aswell. Hmm.. I'll have to think about that. But I think I should get started on making the project manager.
To the people that ask why I dont just get a manager from Github or somewhere else. It's simply because I dont want to spend the time reading through alot of code to see if there's anything I dont need or I can skip out on. Plus I dont want someone elses code. Unless I ask for help on projects.
wed 27 sep 2023
Okay so I got everything uploaded to a database, now it's just a matter of making a page where I can edit it all and make new posts, but that will be for later, or another day. Aslong as everything on this page is on the database.
Earlier today I went out and got a new carpet for the place, and it's big. Bigger than I thought it would be. But hard to show now, hopefully I can make it so the new page shows images, or it's possible to download images from the site. I dont want them to autoload. So it's just how I would do it best, while also having it fast loading and not be bottlenecked by the database server, or the Apache server that I'm using.
tues 26 sep 2023
So I went out and bought some new speakers yesterday evening. Some B&O CX50 for just having the radio on. Nothing else. But then there was no cables with them, so I have to go out and get some cables that would fit them. Since they're using an older version of the DIN connector. They're not expensive, but I just have to wait for a few days until they arrive. Plus then I need to get a Bluetooth dongle for the amp. so I can play from my phone.
Then today I've been sorting alot of my stuff. Almost all my boxes are gone now, and the stuff is inside the apartment. Everything is almost where it should be.
Need some stuff on the walls, and small things. Some small carpets would be nice to have aswell.
mon 25 sep 2023
Finally there's internet.
They took 35 minutes switching out a fiberbox. 3 screws on the wall, splice new ends to fiber cables, 3 new holes in the wall, connect everything. You would expect them to be paid hourly and not per customer they get.
Anyway, now I can go and perhaps finish up the stuff on this site that I wanted to do for a while. Plus also get Spody.org fixed up and working again.
That might be tonight. I'm still unpacking. Not much left to unpack.
I have my TV area, which has my B&O MX8000 with the Beolab 6000 speakers connected to it.
A retro area, which have an old desktop PC with Windows XP, yes that's retro now. That can run all the older software that I have.
My new computer, or newish. It's a Ryzen 9. So somewhat new. My specs can be read here.
wed 20 sep 2023
It's raining. They say there's a storm over the country. I could hear it last night, the windows were creaking, with every blow there was. Rain pouring down and hitting the windows.
There isn't much happening in my life atm. I have plans on making this site better for me when you look at it as a blog, but with no internet at home then it's kinda difficult getting anything done. I only have internet at work. Nothing from phone. My landline phone is the only communication I have outside of my computer at work. Then I also have free TV, as in the free channels from an antenna I have in my window. I don't want to pay for channels, so I only have the free ones.
I'll make a video about it for my channel at one point when I get more up and running from the moving mess.
I should maybe also make written stuff for this site aswell.
Just now I got a recruiter sending me messages about a new position that seems quite interesting for me. But I'm not sure if I should answer it or not. Most of the time they contact you, talk down to you on the phone and then say they will get back to you. Which they then never do. That's atleast my experience with them.
The site here I want to update so it has a blog feature, where I dont have to write everything manually in code, and then maybe also make it so pages on here can be updated more easy.
Sadly the internet that I ordered will be here on the 25th, nothing before, which is really annoying.
It's been over 1 month since I ordered the internet for my new place. And they somehow cant deliver to the address with the old box they had installed. So if the previous person that lived there cancelled their internet and subscribed again on the same day they couldn't get internet, they would have to wait for a technician to come out and replace it. Even if they are cablable of delivering the internet to the address. All of it is stupid. It doesn't make sense why it should be so difficult to get internet at home.
sun 17 sep 2023
Moving sucks. I kept saying to people that I would move everything myself because everytime that I had to move, people just didnt show up or didnt do anything (left early). It was exactly the same this time around aswell. My dad, mom and sister came to help. Dad walked up 2-3 times to the apartment, sister did about 8. Mother did 30. And I did 84, according to my phone. This is alot and makes you tired. Atleast for me when I'm not exactly in the best shape. Sister had to leave early, even she said that she didnt come by to help, but did anyway, which was nice. Mom arrived 2h late and was there for abotu 2 hours before she left again. Dad was there the entire day, but just didnt do anything. Not even unloading the car. Just standing still.
So I'm extremely tired. I have no internet since they need a technician out to replace the router. It's not something that I could replace my self apparently. I ordered the internet in the start of august, but yeah. Almost 2 months of waiting time.
The only thing I have set up is my bed, and TV. Computer and other stuff is still packed down. I have nowhere to place it.
On another note then I had to empty out the garage I had because keys are being delivered tomorrow. Just my dad had alot of stuff there. So I moved my stuff and cleaned up my part. But then he got "busy" and didn't have the "time" or "energy" to do anything, so I had to move his stuff aswell. When he finally got to the garage then he said he didnt want to get his car dirty, so I had to put everything in my car so he can move it himself later. This just annoys me so much. Like what is the point of having a SUV (Aiways U5) and not use the space for anything? Meanwhile me in my small Peugeot 206 hatchpack I have everything.
Anyway that's all for me right now I'll update when I have more.
thur 14 sep 2023
Tomorrow, friday I have the day off work so I can move all my stuff.
Wish it was longer tho.
And I wish that I had internet on day one, But even tho I ordered internet over a month ago to the address, they need a technician out to fix it. It's just putting up a new router. Which they said they would send to me over a week ago. I still haven't received anything yet.
So I have an idea that I kinda started on. But I need to fix some of the other stuff I have before I do that. Plus I was thinking about doing more streaming. Which would make me have even less time to do stuff. I haven't fixed any of the other projects that I'm working on, yet I want to start up more and then complain about not getting it done in time.
I have been thinking about the project I will talk about when I move, if I should make it into a video for one of the many channels I have up that I dont make anything for.
With that being said I think I have a few hours of videos to render that needs to go up on one of the channels.
Sadly I can't put up solar power, and power in general is quite expensive here compared to other places I've lived. This is due to everything being green power, and that we pay tax on power aswell. The tax is due to our government wanting electric vehicles, and when everyone got electric vehicles then they would up the price so they make more money. Its the standard here.
I think that I should make this site into a blog, but I'll make a secret thing for putting stuff up online. Via database.
There was also the reader of emails that I think I should put up somewhere. I'm getting tired of writing everything with markup. If I press enter it should automaticlly make me a new line instead of writing the < p > < /p > tags.
This change would only make it easier for me to write stuff, and then make the site maybe faster so it doesn't have to load in all the text that I have written before, from day one.
Plus it would be easier to link a specific post to someone.
It might require some work, but I think it would be better for me, plus more time stamps
I think with this I could also add pictures to the posts if I wanted to. These have to be fixed in a size that is easy to load, and fast. This means they're perhaps not the best of quality, but with what I have in mind then I think adding a link to the original picture below would make it so people could download it if they're interested.
With this project then I'm also trying to get rid of something the world uses everyday, but I know I can't get rid of it, this is due to the way the government works and how they want to track people.
wed 13 sep 2023
So far of today it's just been work. I got a reply for some insurance stuff I need for new place. I finally got a useful reply from a person that I'm buying something used from. The stuff from the thriftstore I purchased yesterday has been picked up. The current project that I'm working on, and I will show off when I'm done moving, is almost done. And it should be because I'm moving on friday.
That means I might not do anything for a while, it might be as quiet as august was.
I still think I should make this website into something different.
Or well not different, but something that makes it easier for me to write new stuff. This comes with a security risk, but I think I have an idea of how to make it better, and not really think about it.
If I want to talk about a different thing, then I've been dizzy all day, while I have been drinking water, I'm not feeling too well.
I've been thinking about alot of projects that I should get done, or that I should finish.
All the ideas, but no motivation to finish them.
After I move then I will be working on some I know that.
I want to clear up my mind a bit so I don't have to think about those.
tues 12 sep 2023
Projects, projects and projects. That's alot of what I do in my free time.
I will update the project page very soon with more stuff that I'm working on. Sadly none of these are programming related. I will also start publishing guides to what I've done with some of the projects.
There's the Raspberry Pi project that uses multiple Raspberry Pi's and an RF modulator to make your own local TV channels. Then I have a project that's kinda finished, but due to moving in a few days I haven't done anything regarding it. Some say it's stupid, some say it's pretty cool. I just want to get away from all the devices that track me.
Speaking of which I've had on my mind to make this site more easy for me to write stuff for. And while I do want to keep it lightweight and make stuff myself. I don't feel like I have the motivation to keep making stuff from scratch, while also thinking about security.
I was thinking about making the site into a Wordpress blog, that way it would be easier for me to update stuff, but I was also thinking about making a lock or password protected page from where I could drop everything I write into a database so it will load these posts from that.
That can be both a security issue, and a blessing for me. I dont want to make it harder, but right now I manually write the code for this blog. Like I actually write my blog in Notepad, to then add the HTML markup so it looks better on computers.
I have a project that I kinda want to start working on, but it will take some time to make, I think.
A better search engine for mails. Like being able to search for files, and what's in the files. I'm not sure if other providers have that, But I kinda just want to make it for searching my own mails. I might publish it, if I make it and I find it good enough for others to use.
Many of my projects stays in my hands, or if I send it to someone they might use it once and then it's forgotten.
One of them being Spody.org I feel like I added a bunch of stuff, and it was in use for a few days and then it just stopped getting any traffic.
Last time someone added something to the site was a few months ago.
Maybe it's also because the people that I have asked to use it dont see a need for it.
The plan with it was to make it so I could remember which games I had played, which I own, and which I'm currently playing.
I need to update the site soon with more features, since it's also only in a alpha, or beta. Some features are there on the frontend, but not on the backend. Plus most of the pages could use more info. Google denied many things for the site because there was nothing new on there, and many pages had the same information.
If I need to get more visitors to the platform I might need to give it some kind of overhaul, and also fix a bunch of the issues that there are on the site. Any perhaps also "finish" the site.
With finishing I mean making it functional. Right now on this day then there's no way to mark a game as complete if you have already marked it as playing. Then it will be in 2 lists.
Perhaps on this site then I should make it so the blog posts have a different file depending on the day, or just make it all downloadable from a database or something, but that might require more data for the end user, so I'm not sure how well I like that idea.
That was a longer update or a longer rant or whatever you want to call it from my end. I might update this later, or tomorrow.
sat 9 sep 2023
I'm writing this early in the morning on saturday. I've just taken my medication that I'm being told will help me mentally. But the truth is that they dont really change anything. I only get side effects from it. They're supposed to help my brain "relax" more. But they're medication against schizophrenia.
It was my birthday yesterday, and 5 people contacted me in total on the day. Is this what it means to be forgotten? Because it really feels like it.
tues 5 sep 2023
It's been some time since I updated properly on this page.
Alot of stuff have gone down that I haven't been able to talk about before now.
First of all then there has been some friendships that have been on the loose and alot of drama. People blaming each other, and to be honest I'm too old to deal with it, so they could either stop it or get out of my life.
Second has been my diagnosis and stuff that I'm going through mentally. It's hard to explain, but I'm not really well in my head. There has been too many suicide attempts, and with my life in general over the past few years it's easy to understand why. I won't get into the details right now. But there has been alot going on. Now I'm on medication against Schizophrenia. And the past few days where I've gotten them (started friday 1st september), boy I can tell you they're something.
Like I get alot of the sideeffects that they list. And they even told me when I went to pick up the medication at the pharmacy.
These are some of the things that I've experienced so far:
If we want to top everything there then I've been told to take this medication until my doctor says no. So its going to be a great month until the next time I see him.
wed 30 aug 2023
Okay. So I got some ideas for stuff I want to add to Spody.org. A Blog function for the users. Like where the users can have their own page, where they can do simple designs, like change colors and such. People would be free to post what they want. And it would be anonymous to do so.
fri 18 aug 2023
Yeah. Not much. Just ideas. Plenty of ideas.
I should maybe start fixing some of the sites I have up.
fri 11 aug 2023
Not much happens in my life.
I'm moving to a different place in September.
Some days alot of stuff happens, and then most of the days it's the same.
wed 26 jul 2023
Nothing much has happened really. Just work and no vacation.
Life has been boring.
Only taking care of my dads cat, and granddads birds.
I went to see a therapist yesterday. And yeah. Nothing much, it's just them getting surprised over how my life works/is.
sun 16 jul 2023
I hate that people write to one expecting a quick answer like;
>Hey can you help with this?
Yeah tell me when.
And then nothing.
tues 11 jul 2023
Being forcefully entered in a chat, or invited to a group should stop.
Why is it possible to just invite someone into a chatroom and they should be forced to hear that stupid pinging sound from the messages until they leave manually.
This is an issue in so many chat programs.
I've had this happen on MSN Messenger, Skype and Discord.
If I want to meet people I'll go to places where I can meet them.
mon 10 jul 2023
More and more days go between the days I write anything.
Motivation has gone down to a peak low.
I'm just here to be in pain.
The most exciting thing in my life is going to bed.
fri 7 jul 2023
Only thing interesting on this day, is that I confessed to someone. I can't tell if they're real or not. In my mind they seem real.
A rejection ofcourse. Why would it be anything else. Even if it's in my mind only then I'm not supposed to feel happiness.
I'm having a hard time figuring out if the people I see and talk to are real, or if they're just a part of my imagination.
It's just a part of my daily life. Not knowing if I speak with someone or if it's just something i see.
wed 5 jul 2023
A few days since I wrote anything on here.
Life has just been busy.
They're trying to diagnose me as mentally insane. And require me to take medication for it.
They're all against me.
The only thing I have where I can do anything is the internet. MY own page.
I'm not getting enough sleep.
Ever since I stopped drinking the voices have been louder.
I still see the same amount of people, that aren't there.
I see them clearly, but I can see who is real and who isnt.
Some days they're hard to see, these are called the bad days.
When it's a bad day it usually ends up in me being drunk. It was the way that helped me keep the voices down.
I decided that it would be the best if I stopped drinking.
Whenever there's alcohol I end up drinking until there isn't anything left.
fri 23 jun 2023
All mails have been transferred to the new server so for the first time in a long time my mails load almost instantly. I had an issue with Private Email from Namecheap earlier where it would take between 5-20 seconds to load up an email. Either in browser or in Thunderbird.
The issue seems to have been resolved now so there hopefully shouldnt be any delay in reading my emails.
Friday is the day that I usually drink alot.
I've started feeling like I shouldn't drink as much as I have been. But then I buy some and want to drink it all. Just the same as with food, if there's anything I eat it. Doesn't matter if I'm full. I eat until there's nothing on the table.
To write about something completely different, I've started to have my desktop on more which means I'm actually making more videos for the Youtube channel. But it will be a while before I'm at the 15 videos daily that I once was at.
Streaming is almost offlimits now because I can't find the time to do so while also having some kind of privacy. The biggest issue is that I'm not living by myself and have a room which is walkthrough, so people just walk around behind me to get to stuff. So I dont feel like I can stream while that's happening.
Regarding the laptop battery I bought the other day. Then it seems like I've bought the wrong one, so another month or so before I get the correct battery.
Dont want to wait, but I have to wait to get the money back from Amazon and then order the new one.
thur 22 jun 2023
Got my new mail server up and running correctly now.
Forgot that I had to put in the MX records before it would actually work.
Got that part of it working fine, now it's just a matter of getting the website correctly up and running, since I've switched server provider.
Yes, it's spody.org I'm talking about.
I want to work on stuff, but it's hard getting the motivation for all the projects I'm currently working on.
For example, I'm afraid of AI's and anything that can track me (phones) and those kind of devices, but I kinda want to make an AI that you can talk to. A personal assistance or something.
I would like to have a massive network where everything is located in one place. So one login for everything. Twitter, Facebook, Reddit and Youtube clone or something.
Plus I have my normal work, and a few Youtube channels (1 2)
Got some idea's for videos on the one channel, but again motivation to make them since they require abit more work than others.
Meanwhile it's so hot that having my desktop powered up for a few minutes heats up the room so much it's hard to focus on anything other than being hot. And No, AC is not allowed in this apartment. Fans are not going in, since I get that vomit feeling when they're next to me.
wed 21 jun 2023
Woke up fine, but felt sick at work in the mornings. Seemed like I had a hangover from my small problem I have.
Got new battery for laptop, but it might have been the wrong one. Since it still comes up with no battery installed, even after trying SMC resetting a few times.
tues 20 jun 2023
Today is the day that my dad has to go under the knife. So that means I have to take care of my brother. Atleast today and tomorrow. He was told that he could drive home himself so it's not that bad.
Otherwise I've done almost nothing.
I've written half a script for a video idea I have, then maybe next weekend I'll record it and maybe start editing it.
I don't know who I can trust.
They're around me, they're everywhere.
My thoughts aren't my own.
They want me to do bad things.
Everyone is against me.
I don't know who's trustworthy.
Afraid to do anything.
If I rebel they will get me.
I see them.
They see me.
They're always just standing and looking directly at me.
I don't know what to do.
I don't know what I can do.
All they tell me is the best way of ending my life.
If it finally isn't that they're talking about then it's how to end someone else's life.
I'm shaking and crying at work.
I can't do this anymore.
It's so loud, they're everywhere.
I can't concentrate.
What they say might be correct, it's easier if I wasn't around.
mon 19 jun 2023
Nothing much really been going on during the weekend. Other than it being really hot.
Cleaned car and started working on a project, aswell as starting a new series.
Added some smaller features to this page so it's easier to control newer posts.
Today is pretty much just going to be getting everything ready for my dads surgery tomorrow. Where I then have to take care of my brother which is handicapped. No issues in that, except that we don't really go well together. His handicap and my mental thoughts don't help.
He has autism and diabetes. And I, yeah I have some and i'm getting tested for more. So far in the month of may I have these written in my journal and as a diagnosis (on the app). Depression, social anxiety, and I'm going to the final meeting regarding my possible schizofrenia next week. So it's very fun.
My doctor has told me that I have it, but before it can be put as a diagnosis then I have to visit a phycatrist, and then after that meeting they have up to 30 days to write the diagnosis.
sun 18 jun 2023
Okay, so it's been a ride to get this laptop working. First online recovery didn't work on it since Apple has shut down the servers or something. Then I had to get the OS from Apple's website and make my own bootable USB. Fine, but it requires a Mac to make one. Then I tried to use my Dads Macbook Air from around 2015. Doesn't want to mount the device since it's far ahead in version. So then I found a Pirated copy of OSX Lion, that worked with making a bootable USB device. But that wasn't all. Because that version didn't want to update. So I had gotten a Macbook with OSX Lion on it, which you can't really use for many things.
The best thing I could do then was to make a USB bootable with the OS that I got from Apple's website to make a USB on the pirated copy of the OS. And that worked with updates. But it took about 4 hours to install on this machine. Which could either be because I unplugged the battery and Apple makes the machine slower with a dead battery, or because the i7, 16GB RAM and 500GB SSD isn't fast enough.
Anyway I got it working now.
A new battery has been ordered and should arrive next week.
fri 16 jun 2023
People say that I'm weird.
I bought a "new" laptop yesterday. And it has a bunch of issues.
First of all the battery is swollen. So that's a good thing, right?
Then there's an issue with the OS reinstall.
I've spent around 4 hours on it so far getting it to install the latest OS for that specific laptop (Apple) and yeah. Still not got it booted up.
While at work today I got an idea. I can put the harddrive that I got it with (750GB) back into it, since that seems to have an OS installed. Then I can make an install media with that, and then put the SSD I got back into it.
This I think would be the easier way to get it installed.
I've tried with my Windows computer to make a USB boot on it, and with the OS' I've found and tried with only 1 of them actually booted up. But it then gave an error that the drive was corrupted.
So I'll try to follow Apple's guidelines next with a file from their site, and then install with the guide they have on their site.
So, so far it's been a great journey to get this Apple Macbook Pro 15" from 2011 working.
PS. I have a Macbook Air 14" M2 2022 for work. But private projects shouldn't go on that. And since it's an M2 it can't run the software to make the bootable USB drive.
wed 14 jun 2023
Ok so I didn't start the project yesterday as I hoped. (I got drunk and played Valorant).
But I still think it's a great idea to have everything inside a single program/website/app.
I guess getting users are the hard part and would cost alot of money for the servers. But a project is a project. And if I want to make something like that then I'll try my best to do so.
I just can't figure out what I want to do with the design, if I should actually do something that looks "good" or keep the design on spody.org.
If only I didn't have a day job so I could focus more on the site.
Even this site isn't finished, I'm just writing whenever I feel like it. I even said somewhere that I will most likely not write everyday.
But imagine:
All in one app/website.
That would mean I'd have to make a search function on the site and figure out an algorithm for videos/forum/news.
Heh. Already now I'm thinking it's alot of work.
tues 13 jun 2023
I just got an insane idea. Atleast from all the Reddit stuff being down at the moment. What if you have an app/website that has everything included. Livestreams (twitch), social media (facebook), forum (reddit) and video sharing (youtube) all on one website. So you only had 1 account and you could select which part you wanted to use. Kinda like tabs, but the notifications are the same.
I think I found out what I need to spend my time on making.
A alot of issues will arrise I know. But I need something to do with my time that isn't just playing games, which I barely do anymore, and program other stuff.
It might be an extension to my already made site;spody.org
With the limited languages that I know, then I know it will be a hard thing to make.
But I'll try to make it.
Signing in with email, then you set a username.
Default page could be the game collection part, but on the side then there could be links to the other part of the site. This would require people to change up their accounts.
mon 12 jun 2023
It's impossible to live a life you want. I'm not talking a life with lots of money and partners. Its just the daily life of a "normal" person. Being normal is a personal definition. Say I want to get a diesel vehicle. Which I want. I think they drive better with the torque they have. But with the government in Denmark they have ruined it for everyone. Either the government or EU. There's requirements for driving into some cities. And the rules are so bad that if you have a car from before 2016 you might not be allowed into some cities. Because the pollution levels are so high.
When it has been tested that on longer journeys a diesel is less dangerous than an petrol vehicle.
Anyway that's enough on this page about diesel and the government.
If I go on about all the thoughts I have on my mind then there's just too many. Getting them all out on paper or on screen in something that's understandable is hard.
Working is difficult. There's alot going on which makes it harder to concentrate.
Weirdly enough there's no issues when I drive. I might be concentrating on driving so my brain doesn't have the power to multitask.
What I'm talking about here is that I see outlines of people and hear voices. Mostly the voices I hear are telling me to do stuff. Imagine you're playing the Sims. There's someone controlling your every move. You might have some control over it yourself, but there's someone higher up telling you to do stuff you're not in the mood for. Except for me it's not the mood, I'm being told to do bad things. Some of the stuff I hear daily is that it would be better for the world if I just ended myself. Which isn't a very nice thought to have.
The outlines I see aren't that bad, but they're following me and looking at me all the time. So I get paranoid and want to get away. Even tho it's pretty hard to escape from your brain and your thoughts.
One way I've found out that I can "escape" is by drinking alcohol. Even tho I know it's bad for my health. Then it's the "easiest" way I've found out.
I'm supposed to get tested on the 29th of june for schizofrenia.
My doctor doesn't know what exactly would be wrong with me, but I do have traits for schizofrenia he says. So he is pretty positive it's that.
I can see now that with just 2 posts the page is getting quite long. Maybe having a single page for all my rants would not be the best. So maybe I should just have a smaller amount of sub pages, or have some kind of pagination, which would be really annoying to have with static pages like what I currently have.
There are no dynamic pages. All of them are written in a single text document and then uploaded.
I said it would be too much work to get a backend with database to write everything out on the page.
sun 11 jun 2023
I bought a car. I've had many cars before, but the thing that's special about this one is that there's almost no eletronics in it. So its harder to get tracked. None of that hands free for mobiles, or GPS tracking. Just an engine, with a computer for the eletronics in the car. It's from 2000. So not new. It's a base color; grey. So again. Harder to track. And in this country it was one of the most sold cars during the period they made them. The reason why I wanted to get this, was it's not old enough that you don't see any of them on the road anymore. They're a regular sight. So that means it fits in. Again. Less tracking. The less I get seen, the less people can follow me.
It's weird. I have no issues doing some things, but then there's others I don't want to do at all because of the tracking.
I can use my computer, stream, write on a blog, have a personal website. But I can get paranoid when I have a phone or newer devices on me.
I work in the IT industry, as a programmer. So I make stuff with tracking, but I refuse to have those myself.
Maybe it's one of those things where when you work with it, then you don't want your own life to be like it.
If it was possible in this country I'd get rid of my phone, but sadly it's now a requirement to have a smart phone to do anything.
You cannot log onto your bank, or any sites that require authentication with your social security number without a smart phone.
And even if you could say no, then there's just other sites or programs that require you to get text messages, and cant be sent by email.
Steam for example requires you to have authentication.
From what I feel then we're getting to a world where it's impossible to sign off. You're always online. Even if the phone is shut down. If it was possible then I'd do it. I'd get rid of the phone. This page in general is like a diary. I write about the stuff that has happened or annoyed me.
Maybe I should write the paranoid thinking on a different page? Otherwise I might just fill up this page.